Choices

So earlier this week I came home from work very frustrated. Several times in a fairly short amount of time I made the declaration that "I hate my job". I am tired of often havng nothing to work on so I feel like I am wasting my day and not learning anything. At first I was excited to come back to Avanade because I thought I was going to get to see a new side of the company and it was going to be a huge learning opportunity. Well it hasn't turned out that way and it has been getting more and more irritating.

I voiced my rather frustrated opinions to my Dad who said "fine, get another job." He then went on to explain that being adult sometimes sucks and adults have to stick things out that they don't like, sometimes for extended periods of time. He told me a story of my grandfather who was in a job for several years that he hated. he would fire himself every night and then rehire himself the next morning, because he had to.

While those are never things you want to hear when you are upset, i know i needed to hear it. Granted 11 more weeks is a lot shorter than a few years, thank goodness. But I also realized that I have been unhappy for a few months now with things that have been going on in my life. I went to bed fairly upset. In the morning I was still upset but I took some time on the ferry to think things through. managed to tell myself, without getting more frustrated, that I was in fact choosing to be angry and upset about this. I needed to once again learn and apply the principle of "you choose how you feel" and make it so that no matter what happens at work i can still keep a good attitude and not regreat the summer. I don't like being upset all the time and i don't want to be know as someone who is. I think of myself as a happy, cheerful person and that is not who I have been lately, so I needed to turn a corner. So i conciously made the decision to be happy at work no matter what and to work on it every day so that I am not constantly upset. The summer will pass eventually and then I will be able to go back to Provo. In the meantime I am dancing in the evenings and working towards a Ballroom competition in August.

So no more frustrated Emily because a temporary job isn't as good as it has been. Time to grow up rise above it so that I can get the most and be satisfied with what I am able to make here. :)